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was; e into contact with those boys。 She would be Standard
Five teacher; as far away personally from her class as if she
had never set foot in St。 Philip's school。 She would just
obliterate them all; and keep herself apart; take them as
scholars only。
So her face grew more and more shut; and over her flayed;
exposed soul of a young girl who had gone open and warm to give
herself to the children; there set a hard; insentient thing;
that worked mechanically according to a system imposed。
It seemed she scarcely saw her class the next day。 She could
only feel her will; and what she would have of this class which
she must grasp into subjection。 It was no good; any more; to
appeal; to play upon the better feelings of the class。 Her
swift…working soul realized this。
She; as teacher; must bring them all as scholars; into
subjection。 And this she was going to do。 All else she would
forsake。 She had bee hard and impersonal; almost avengeful on
herself as well as on them; since the stone throwing。 She did
not want to be a person; to be herself any more; after such
humiliation。 She would assert herself for mastery; be only
teacher。 She was set now。 She was going to fight and subdue。
She knew by now her enemies in the class。 The one she hated
most was Williams。 He was a sort of defective; not bad enough to
be so classed。 He could read with fluency; and had plenty of
cunning intelligence。 But he could not keep still。 And he had a
kind of sickness very repulsive to a sensitive girl; something
cunning and etiolated and degenerate。 Once he had thrown an
ink…well at her; in one of his mad little ra